My Stress list

    So my mother’s catheterization went well, as well as could be expected. My mother had a triple bypass eight years ago to be exact and now she had two stents put in. One artery had three major blockages. This is a result of not doing what the doctors told her to do. She is home and doing better with a nice rosy hue. One thing to check off the list of stress. We also got the rehearsal dinner out of the way. Unfortunately as my luck always goes it did not go smoothly. Today was also Danny’s second birthday and he woke up with fever, by the time we got to the restaurant tonight he was burning up and then proceeded to throw up all over…you guessed it ME. My poor baby. For every one thing I cross off my stress list two more pop up.

     Here’s the silver lining; oh wait there isn’t one yet. I can officially say I have started using my cane again, whomp whomp. I’m not very thrilled about it but I have gone too long pretending I don’t need it again. At least it has pretty rhinestones on it so it will look good with my dresses at the weddings this weekend. Oh yea, there’s my silver lining! While having to give in to the can again is not easy for me to accept, it is also not easy for me to use since my hands hurt so bad it’s hard to hold it. So like I said for every one item crossed off my stress list we add at least two more.

     Let’s recap shall we. Two weddings and a rehearsal dinner in one weekend, mom’s heart trouble, mom’s other health issues, still looking for doctors for the kids, not working and still poor. Now let’s add the new which is just old making a comeback. Major joint and muscle pain, legs that feel like they weigh 200 lbs. each, back pain returns, fatigue likes to come around now and then, and let’s not forget the numb hands that hurt and are now swelling and the painful wrists. I can’t remember anything else right now; oh yea memory that’s getting worse and a numb face. I think I covered it for now.

     I am officially back to complaining and at this point that’s all I feel like doing. My body feels like it is tightening so bad that I think I shrunk an inch or two. I am at a point where I have no emotion at all, I want to cry but I can’t, the well is dry people. As Madonna once said “love don’t live here anymore”.