How you feelin? HOT HOT! How you feelin? HOT HOT HOT! So we are almost midsummer and I do not like it one bit. I am changing the name of this blog to the downer files. Back in December, January, February, etc everyone was wishing for the warm weather. Not me, I like the cold but can do without the snow. The moment my body gets over heated it’s like a car, it doesn’t want to run. I have been noticing since last week a steady decline in my health. I now have developed high blood pressure, the pain in my hands is at times unbearable, and my legs have gone back to feeling like Jaba the hut is sitting on each foot.
I am not having a pity party this time though. I still manage to get things done like food shopping, vacuuming, even making the beds and dishes. Oh yea and taking care of my little guys one of which was in the emergency room Saturday night with high fever. It turns out he has coxsakie virus. I don’t know where he got it from. Anyway he is on the mend. I feel worse for my kids than myself right now. They are stuck in the house with me because I am unable to bring them out in this heat. Can we say cabin fever?
Now back to your regularly scheduled complaining. I have realized that the last two years of my life have been filled with crazy bad luck. I guess if it wasn’t for the bad luck, I wouldn’t have any luck. I am still unable to work and my disability runs out this week. On top of that I am still trying to get coverage for my medication which I just took the last dose of. Worried you ask; just a tad. I have become very quiet and introverted with my feelings; maybe this is why I have high blood pressure and chest pains lately. I have come to the conclusion that it is not in God’s hands; it is the universe that likes to fuck with me. I realize that praying, begging, pleading, complaining, venting, arguing, however you want to put it doesn’t help; so I have decided to keep it to myself from now on. May be if I become an alcoholic or a sneaky conniving bitch like a few people I know I might get what I want and feel I deserve. Bitter you say! You bet your ass I am. I have been a good person my whole life. I haven’t done anything out of the ordinary to piss off God or unbalance the universe. Like I said before I’d make a deal with the devil but I hate the heat. Maybe if he moves to Alaska we’ll discuss.
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