So unfortunately I was forced to return to work Friday, Saturday, Monday and Tuesday. Friday and Saturday were very bad days for me to the point that my cane wasn’t even helping. Let’s just say I became one with the gray car in the parking lot Friday night. I woke up Monday feeling pretty good; it’s amazing what a ten degree change in temp can do. No cane, no fatigue, running all over the unit all night. I impressed myself. Today I am tired but I have to go food shopping so no rest for this chick today, maybe tomorrow.
It felt good to return to work for a few reasons one being I get to spend time with grownups. It also felt good to see everyone missed me and is concerned about me. All I heard for three days is how good I look…we know how much I love hearing that. I was also told many times that I looked pretty. I have come to the conclusion that I looked like a horror movie monster before I went out on disability. This was apparently true cause when I asked a few friends some of them nicely confirmed it. I felt especially loved by (shout out alert) Erin last night, every time she passed me she hugged me. It’s too bad she is leaving our unit to become a nurse on the floors, but I am proud of her. With all the well wishes and welcoming back also came the realization that all the stupid petty crap that was going on when I left is still going on now. There are a few people that need to graduate from high school and put on their big boy and big girl pants now.
Anyway, even though I have returned to work does not mean I am better; I just had to come back. I honestly was not ready. My hands and legs are still very weak and this heat kills me. Let’s not ignore the fact that my CRS (can’t remember shit) is getting worse and I find that I have trouble speaking lately. It’s like the words are there but my mouth doesn’t know how to form them sometimes. Talk about frustrating. One thing resolves and three more pop up. Oh well this is the perks of Multiple Sclerosis. Another lovely perk is the hour and a half MRI that I get to endure once a year…that’s next week folks. Stayed toned!
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