My Stress

     STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!! It is everywhere we turn. These days waking up is stressful for me. Ask any neurologist or MS patient and they will tell how easily stress aggravates our condition. I love when I am told by a medical professional to keep my stress level down. Like I said before, easier said than done people. I have two very active little boys and a husband to care for, a 3 bedroom apartment to keep clean and three meals a day to cook plus snacks. Let's not forget the food shopping and work three nights a week till 11pm. I know I am not the only person on earth doing it but we all know everyday life which is what I live is stressful so how am I gonna keep my stress level down. Now lets add the extreme fatigue, numb limbs, weak legs and the constant back pain I have...more stress. Ok you still with me? Besides the constant financial struggle that many of us are facing I now have another worry on my plate, not being able to afford my meds.
     Oh yes I said it. My ins. co. is no longer covering my meds. Apparently only diabetics and asthmatics are guaranteed meds by the state, but if you have a debilitating disease you are screwed. What does one do when they here that the copay for their medication is over$2,00.00? Well I don't know about you but I had a mini nervous breakdown! I also called all the numbers on the back of my insurance cards and got a big fat NOTHING! I am now at the mercy of the drug company hoping I can qualify for their assistance program.I'm not gonna lie, I do not have a hopeful outlook about it. For 2 years this is just the way my luck has been so I now automatically think that way so when it does go right I am surprised...it gives me something to look forward to. Like Christmas morning.
     I know normal everyday life is stressful for everyone and we all have our own problems on top of it, so it's not as simple as the Dr.s think it is to keep it at a low level. The difference between you and me...when I get stressed out my hands go numb and my legs stop supporting me but it's ok cause I have other support from family and friends. Insert tear. Enough about me though...well for now LOL.