My friendS

            So I last left off in a mindless rant if I remember correctly.  Surprisingly complaining about my pain and blah, blah, blah. Well it's still there, shocker! I do have to say I have and a few good days.  That being said school started and so has the crap. This is not why I write tonight though. I write to let people know that I am not alone in this fight with MS.  It takes its toll on the patient and all the people around us on a daily basis.
            I know a few people personally who suffer as much as I do, although they are quieter about it than I am. My one friend has a heart of gold and has been living with this monster for ten years now. Last year after Sandy hit our area she was extremely active in efforts to help people in her old neighborhood to clean up the mess left by the storm. She is a good friend of my sister's and since my diagnosis I have come to rely on her for advice and help. Seeing her running around and walking all over made me jealous, I'm can't lie.  She seemed like she was doing so well.
              Today I realized that the smiles and encouraging words and attitude only last so long. I am not alone in this fight and Coleen proved it to me today. For a person who has been so strong and great about her disease it has taken its ugly toll on her as well. I also see this in my dear friends Maria  and Jazzy as well. Coleen is the one who shocks me the most. She is always so positive and upbeat and is the person I look up to and go to for advice as far as MS goes. Coleen my heart hurts for you right now. I hate MS for what it is doing to you and all the rest of us. This is for you my friend. Feel better soon cause I need to have someone to keep my outlook positive. I'm here for you.